Boy and Girl

6 billion people in this world and each having a different character....

the few people i know i wonder if they'd ever understand who i am??

when not able to embrace what they say or want the road we were travelling togther splits in two...many people loosing touch many jus dropping off the map of my life....

the amount of tears shed for someone special seems to be a weakness in others eyes and maybe it is too but loving someone so deeply that they mean a great deal in life is it wrong??Love, what does it mean? Cant a girl love a boy with only the purest intentions of being friends??Love doesnt happen to all but for all the times it did a part of my dreams and a part of myself was burned up.Now at this turning point i look back at the last 6months and wonder where and why things went wrong?Stepping into a friendship with no promises to love a relationship of best friends is the name i gave but somewhere in the 6months the definition turned into something more serious for me to handle.Telling myself that i'd try hoping not to break hearts i honestly tried but failing to fall in love hurting myself and the one who can love so truly. Here i am having lost the one best friend i tot i'd never lose and a love i can only admire and wish i had the courage and strenght to embrace.A distant thought of "what maybe" to grace my mind in the coming years.....and a hearfelt silent prayer to God to erase the shades of me which i have left behind in his life....

Two steps

Every single one

Came with a promise,

A promise of being there

some a promise to love

Forever...eternity.

Yet two steps into reality

Forver and eternity

Lasted only those two steps.

Left behind

In a swirl of dust

Amongst the million memories

Given in those two steps

Left behind to regain strength

Left behind to gag at the reflection.

Alone to face the world

To put on a face

To cover the hurt

To bury the pain

Under a million lies

And a fake smile.

Catch my breath

And take a step

Leaving behind a trail

Of pain and hurt

In a swirl of dust

Wait for it to settle

Along with my memories

Careful not to retrace my steps

Careful not to look back......

An end??

Again a promise for forever ended with a bang.Two people from two different world brought together by circumstance.Being friends a choice they chose holding hands under the star strewn skies they swore never to be seperated.Mistakes happened and promises that were valued so long hold no more truth.Turning a blind eye to all the sorry's,a quick decision to move on in life and a realization that forgiveness is too much for a "sinner".What sin??? A sin of going against the one's belief was the sin committed.Too many things said too many scars on a glass no more the same and never can be.Trust and belief blown away by the wind now jus a misplaced post saying best friends but noone under watchin the skies above......