Boy and Girl

6 billion people in this world and each having a different character....

the few people i know i wonder if they'd ever understand who i am??

when not able to embrace what they say or want the road we were travelling togther splits in two...many people loosing touch many jus dropping off the map of my life....

the amount of tears shed for someone special seems to be a weakness in others eyes and maybe it is too but loving someone so deeply that they mean a great deal in life is it wrong??Love, what does it mean? Cant a girl love a boy with only the purest intentions of being friends??Love doesnt happen to all but for all the times it did a part of my dreams and a part of myself was burned up.Now at this turning point i look back at the last 6months and wonder where and why things went wrong?Stepping into a friendship with no promises to love a relationship of best friends is the name i gave but somewhere in the 6months the definition turned into something more serious for me to handle.Telling myself that i'd try hoping not to break hearts i honestly tried but failing to fall in love hurting myself and the one who can love so truly. Here i am having lost the one best friend i tot i'd never lose and a love i can only admire and wish i had the courage and strenght to embrace.A distant thought of "what maybe" to grace my mind in the coming years.....and a hearfelt silent prayer to God to erase the shades of me which i have left behind in his life....

Two steps

Every single one

Came with a promise,

A promise of being there

some a promise to love

Forever...eternity.

Yet two steps into reality

Forver and eternity

Lasted only those two steps.

Left behind

In a swirl of dust

Amongst the million memories

Given in those two steps

Left behind to regain strength

Left behind to gag at the reflection.

Alone to face the world

To put on a face

To cover the hurt

To bury the pain

Under a million lies

And a fake smile.

Catch my breath

And take a step

Leaving behind a trail

Of pain and hurt

In a swirl of dust

Wait for it to settle

Along with my memories

Careful not to retrace my steps

Careful not to look back......

An end??

Again a promise for forever ended with a bang.Two people from two different world brought together by circumstance.Being friends a choice they chose holding hands under the star strewn skies they swore never to be seperated.Mistakes happened and promises that were valued so long hold no more truth.Turning a blind eye to all the sorry's,a quick decision to move on in life and a realization that forgiveness is too much for a "sinner".What sin??? A sin of going against the one's belief was the sin committed.Too many things said too many scars on a glass no more the same and never can be.Trust and belief blown away by the wind now jus a misplaced post saying best friends but noone under watchin the skies above......

An Alternative

Travellin through a tunnel the light at the end never seem to come.Fear of the unknown as well of the known beats inside her.Hands out streched searchin for help among the pressing darkness only to come upon stone walls on either side.Echoes of her voice resonate against the walls to oppress the silence that fills the air.Walkin,stumbling,fallin onto the ground scrapping her knee agaisnt a million pebbles.Oozing blood through her wounds yet having no option but to move on further.From far above a invisible pairs to eyes watche her struggle,her journey through the darkness.Yet not seeing the bundled,broken and shattered mass she has become.Losing her faith losing trust movin on for so long having lost her way too many times.Her only hope an alternative to put a end to the darkness an alternative to find a candle to get her through the darkness.....An alternative help her make it through.

Life in a New World

Life is such a mystery, if you have everything it'd give you more till you don’t know the value of what you have in hand and if you don’t have anything!!??! it would give numbered comforts and love which when you embrace with your heart would go up in a whiff of smoke jus to be replaced with a vast emptiness which would take so long to fill, that life itself starts to look bleak. When people have their hands filled with the luxuries of life they tend to sit on a throne of gold in their minds but in reality they are really sitting on a throne of hate and hurt, why hate??The hatred that they have incurred through all the hurt and pain they have caused to others and why hurt??The pain and suffering of those unfortunate souls who trusted them only to be betrayed and stepped on from time to time. When a human makes a mistake it is the general tendency of the other homo sapiens to remember it forever and to make sure it is not forgotten by anyone it’s like a needle being driven into the finger tips when drifting into a drug induced sleep. Mistakes would pile and none would be forgotten or let to be forgotten, till a person comes into life n tries to erase all the scars, time and life has left behind but by then everything in life has taken the shape of the things others have said and love trust friendship start to exist only on the screen. But life seems to be different for those who speak out loud and can turn on their charm to cover their mistakes, to paint a cover of invisibility on their path of numerous blunders and uncountable murder of character. But these faults and shortcomings would elude the eyes of the world coz charm money and fakeness define the world and life in this present decade. All the pure are reflected in a shade of black and the impure in a shade of gold in the mirror life is holding in front of all of us.......

THIS is the story of what life and our world has become today....