Scars of Change

Sometimes u are surrounded by a million ppl….every one of them your “close” friends, best friends, room mates,sweethearts but at times amongst the crowd u loose urself…u become lost in a crowd of familiar faces most of whom u share a “deep” connection with but do they share the same connection?easy to say don’t care abt it....easy to say forget abt it wen at a point of time in life those faces mattered more than anything else in this world.We make a mistake of loving someone so much giving yourself to them so much that they take you for granted they hold the power, the key to ur emotions,Why??why should we give them the authority when there would have been a time when their mere existence you wouldn have even known.Giving someone the power to push yourself into the darkest corner of ones mood is the most harmful ever….best friends are those ppl who u kno would be by their side wen the world walks out when u walk out on the world…not those who stay by your side when the world rains down with happiness and smiles.Having said that point how many ppl can u actually consider as your best friends..why Is that we only see what we have in front of us??? Why not elevate from our bodies for a minute and stand in front of ourselves and look at ourself…are we what we want others to be??but that question we would never be able to answer u kno why??coz for many of us we are perfect what we said what we do is right which might be wrong in the eyes of others but who cares about others...this life is ours this world is ours the pain and sorrow we may dump on someone else isn’t goin to bother us…..but do remember we are “others” to someone else…the pain and sorrow they might dump on us maybe hard to handle too.So always know that hurting someone even if they are your “best friend” there is always a scar left behind in their memories.When you hurt someone remember your responsible for a change in that person..a change which you would notice or you wouldn but a change that has contributed to the change....change from his true self… a change u have forced on the person

PROMISE TO BE BFF

Somewhere down the lane

i fell in love with you

your daily message in the morning

turned into a burst of sunshine through my life

somewhere down these years

a warmth that makes me dream of u

Years of friendship,dreams of being best friends forever

turn into days i dream of u in love with me

dreams of being together forever sparkle through the day

lay on the grass

smile and feel you around

when you, a million miles away

hold her hand

So unseen to my love for you

so blind to my faith in you

a "happy" news you give me

A news i know

Seeing you with her

Smile my smile,Turn my eye

meet her i do

but inside i cry

she'd have everything i ever wanted

she'd live every dream i dreamed

Walk away with a smile on the outside

heart breaking,blind inside

I smile my smile turn myself

for the promise we made to be best friends forever

Smile my smile on the day down the aisle

on the day i dreamed on a million days

not in white,not in a veil

in a dress i never designed

walk down the aisle

bleeding inside

coz promise we made to be best friends forever

Throw the confetti,hug a good bye

while you drive away

in my dream living with someone else

standing at the gate,wipe a single tear,i wave good bye......

Boy and Girl

6 billion people in this world and each having a different character....

the few people i know i wonder if they'd ever understand who i am??

when not able to embrace what they say or want the road we were travelling togther splits in two...many people loosing touch many jus dropping off the map of my life....

the amount of tears shed for someone special seems to be a weakness in others eyes and maybe it is too but loving someone so deeply that they mean a great deal in life is it wrong??Love, what does it mean? Cant a girl love a boy with only the purest intentions of being friends??Love doesnt happen to all but for all the times it did a part of my dreams and a part of myself was burned up.Now at this turning point i look back at the last 6months and wonder where and why things went wrong?Stepping into a friendship with no promises to love a relationship of best friends is the name i gave but somewhere in the 6months the definition turned into something more serious for me to handle.Telling myself that i'd try hoping not to break hearts i honestly tried but failing to fall in love hurting myself and the one who can love so truly. Here i am having lost the one best friend i tot i'd never lose and a love i can only admire and wish i had the courage and strenght to embrace.A distant thought of "what maybe" to grace my mind in the coming years.....and a hearfelt silent prayer to God to erase the shades of me which i have left behind in his life....

Two steps

Every single one

Came with a promise,

A promise of being there

some a promise to love

Forever...eternity.

Yet two steps into reality

Forver and eternity

Lasted only those two steps.

Left behind

In a swirl of dust

Amongst the million memories

Given in those two steps

Left behind to regain strength

Left behind to gag at the reflection.

Alone to face the world

To put on a face

To cover the hurt

To bury the pain

Under a million lies

And a fake smile.

Catch my breath

And take a step

Leaving behind a trail

Of pain and hurt

In a swirl of dust

Wait for it to settle

Along with my memories

Careful not to retrace my steps

Careful not to look back......

An end??

Again a promise for forever ended with a bang.Two people from two different world brought together by circumstance.Being friends a choice they chose holding hands under the star strewn skies they swore never to be seperated.Mistakes happened and promises that were valued so long hold no more truth.Turning a blind eye to all the sorry's,a quick decision to move on in life and a realization that forgiveness is too much for a "sinner".What sin??? A sin of going against the one's belief was the sin committed.Too many things said too many scars on a glass no more the same and never can be.Trust and belief blown away by the wind now jus a misplaced post saying best friends but noone under watchin the skies above......

An Alternative

Travellin through a tunnel the light at the end never seem to come.Fear of the unknown as well of the known beats inside her.Hands out streched searchin for help among the pressing darkness only to come upon stone walls on either side.Echoes of her voice resonate against the walls to oppress the silence that fills the air.Walkin,stumbling,fallin onto the ground scrapping her knee agaisnt a million pebbles.Oozing blood through her wounds yet having no option but to move on further.From far above a invisible pairs to eyes watche her struggle,her journey through the darkness.Yet not seeing the bundled,broken and shattered mass she has become.Losing her faith losing trust movin on for so long having lost her way too many times.Her only hope an alternative to put a end to the darkness an alternative to find a candle to get her through the darkness.....An alternative help her make it through.

Life in a New World

Life is such a mystery, if you have everything it'd give you more till you don’t know the value of what you have in hand and if you don’t have anything!!??! it would give numbered comforts and love which when you embrace with your heart would go up in a whiff of smoke jus to be replaced with a vast emptiness which would take so long to fill, that life itself starts to look bleak. When people have their hands filled with the luxuries of life they tend to sit on a throne of gold in their minds but in reality they are really sitting on a throne of hate and hurt, why hate??The hatred that they have incurred through all the hurt and pain they have caused to others and why hurt??The pain and suffering of those unfortunate souls who trusted them only to be betrayed and stepped on from time to time. When a human makes a mistake it is the general tendency of the other homo sapiens to remember it forever and to make sure it is not forgotten by anyone it’s like a needle being driven into the finger tips when drifting into a drug induced sleep. Mistakes would pile and none would be forgotten or let to be forgotten, till a person comes into life n tries to erase all the scars, time and life has left behind but by then everything in life has taken the shape of the things others have said and love trust friendship start to exist only on the screen. But life seems to be different for those who speak out loud and can turn on their charm to cover their mistakes, to paint a cover of invisibility on their path of numerous blunders and uncountable murder of character. But these faults and shortcomings would elude the eyes of the world coz charm money and fakeness define the world and life in this present decade. All the pure are reflected in a shade of black and the impure in a shade of gold in the mirror life is holding in front of all of us.......

THIS is the story of what life and our world has become today....